Post by Susan Peabody on Sept 6, 2022 13:57:53 GMT
Susie is my Inner Child. She is fragile, wounded, damaged, and hyper-sensitive. Gretchen is my Inner Teenager. She is angry and very protective. Both of my children have been acting out and going through hard times. I am going to let them speak on this thread.
Here is an email to a friend who criticized my hygiene yesterday. I live in a room and have to go to the gym to shower. Yesterday we had a falling out and rather than end the relationship we agreed to just exchange emails for a while.
Dear Friend: I am so relieved we are staying in touch via email because you only trigger me on Zoom. I am just terrified of criticism right now. My inner child is so out. I went to an ACA meeting this morning and they were not calling people in order, so I did not get called on. Instead of raging, I just left. I am learning that I am like a fragile butterfly that can only live in a protected environment. I know this is sad, but it is my reality. I need to stay where I feel safe until I am not so vulnerable. Take care. Susie
P.S. My Healthy Adult is Susan. My Enlightened Adult is Susannah
Post by Susan Peabody on Sept 6, 2022 14:39:00 GMT
The thing about Susie is that she takes everything far to personally. She sees criticism as rejection. At the same time, I have noticed that she does secretly listens and often accepts the criticism which was meant to be advice.
The thing about Gretchen is that she comes out in Susie's defense, but then she over does it and becomes a bully just like the kids who bullied her on the school yard.
The thing about Susan is that she knows when she is wrong and then apologizes (tenth step).
The thing about Susannah is that she really loves everybody the way God loves everybody. When she is in charge all my inside parts feel the "peace of God that follows all understanding."