Gender Confusion Sept 25, 2020 1:26:32 GMT
Post by Susan Peabody on Sept 25, 2020 1:26:32 GMT
I was beaten by my father, ex-husband, and when he was grown by my son. When I started standing up for myself I developed a masculine personality. I wanted to be a man and get revenge. I was confused about my gender for years. One day, I fell in love with a very feminine woman. We were happy. We were both Christians so we did not have any sexual contact. In 2008 she committed suicide after falling from the fourth story of a hotel. Rather than getting sympathy, or help, my daughter told me I could never see my grandchildren again or come back to church to worship. I was devastated. I did not feel loved. I was confused about religion and the church, but I knew deep down God loved me. That saved my life.
After that, I was single for 16 years trying to serve God as best I could. Then I met Frank. He was kind and gentle and adored me just the way I was. He understood my gender confusion and said he did not care. By the time he passed away we were deeply in love. I felt like a woman for the first time. God had healed me with love not condemnation. My daughter died hating me.
I learned a valuable lesson about love from all this. Since then, I have written about love a lot. After all, it is the most important commandment. But sometimes I get triggered by the lack of love I see on this board. Tessa ands OLIGO are exceptions of course.
I think it would help to separate deviant homosexuals from gender-confused homosexuals. They are very different.
My name is Susannah