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Post by Susan Peabody on Aug 3, 2020 19:06:21 GMT
You are in good company if you do not feel the presence of God. This is how Mother Teresa felt most of her life. I think it might have been depression. She saw it as her time on the cross with Jesus. I think it is both. Before I got on meds I was depressed and did not feel that God loved me. Now I feel his love all the time. I think depression is like a wet blanket. We just cannot feel God's love while being smothered with sorrow. Once we remove the blanket the sun shines through. So my personal opinion is that God created doctors to help with our depression and then we can feel the love that was always there. Read, Come Be My Light for reassurance that you do not have to feel God to know he loves you. I still feel pain from my crown of thorns (migraines) but I do feel God's presence. I guess God knew I could not handle not feeling his presence because I had been looking for love all m life and never found it until the Holy Spirit came to me.
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Post by Susan Peabody on Aug 17, 2020 19:48:55 GMT
I have had thoughts of suicide since I was a child. I acted on the impulsive twice. I swallowed a bottle of aspirin and got really sick, and then I tried to starve my self because of my PoA. I never tried again because of my children. I was not a great mom, but I think God gave me kids to keep me from throwing in the towel. Even after finding God, I was still suicidal sometimes so I got on meds. They I adopted the concepts of acceptance and optimism. I have been in a lot of pain lately, but suicide is not an option. I have to do God's work until he is through we me and I get to go home. God bless you in your "dark night of the soul." It will pass eventually. I promise. Recovery brings new life if you give it time. Life has its ups and downs and we are judged by how well we handle the bad times. Hold your head high. Treat your depression. Help others and you will soon be standing in the light. loveaddictsanonymous.boards.net/board/89/suicidal
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